Happy New Year!!!

I just wanted to write a quick post while I have internet! I have been up at my lake house where we don't have any! The last couple weeks have been an emotional roller coaster, from leaving Cornerstone, to being home, to the holiday season. It has been interesting! I hope everyone had a fantastic Christmas and I hope that you have a wonderful New Year! See you in 2010!!!

I and Love and You,

Diana

Letting Go...or at least trying!

I hate this bittersweet feeling that is so suddenly consuming my life! Why is it that in the last week of school I am having some of the most deep, interesting conversations of the entire semester? It pulls me in, makes it harder to let go. But I also know it is time. I know it is God’s will for me to leave, but it is hard.

Tonight I sit here alone, in a dark room, with nowhere to go, and no one to talk to. I am completely stuck in my own head. And this is not for lack of trying. It is for lack of people, or at least ones who have time and/or willingness to hang with me. With the way things are looking now I have a feeling that this weekend is going to remind me exactly why it is time for me to go. This week has been great! But the outlook of this weekend is horrible! I can’t help the tears that are streaming down my face. There are so many things that I am going to miss here, it’s just that I miss home more! This internal battle of emotions is killing me! It is taking any and all strength that I possess.

So for now, in an attempt to make it through this pain, and it is most likely not the last time that it will be heard, I will say this: Goodbye Cornerstone, I will miss you! I hold no regrets! Thank You for all you have done for me!

I and Love and You,

Diana

Pictures as Promised!

Here are some pictures of Kevin's birthday dinner! And as an update...the weather behaved, and he passed his driver's test! My little brother can now drive! Scary!!! LOL...j/k!

My brother and me

One of the only pics Jamie would take


My parents

Kev and his birthday dessert

Here is his first bite...but it didn't last much longer after that!

Happy Birthday Kevin David!!!

Sixteen years ago today was a very monumental experience in my life! I went from being an only child to having a little brother! And although he is not so little anymore, standing tall at 6 foot (taller than my dad…and he is very proud of that) it is still his birthday, and a milestone one at that. Today he will go and attempt to get his drivers’ license. I say attempt because I don’t trust the weather to be on his side! I feel terrible that I can’t be there. There is nothing I would rather be doing today than hanging out with him and sitting in the drivers facility with my mom waiting for him to come back with the verdict. Instead I have to attempt to do a presentation as he is off attempting to get his license. I can’t wait to find out whether he got it or not! Well I am going to let this be his day and leave this at that. I will try to post some pictures a little later of his birthday weekend and dinner a little later! We celebrated this past weekend since I wasn’t going to be home today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN DAVID!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! GOOD LUCK!!!

I and Love and You,
Diana

Grateful!

Let me start by apologizing. I was just re-reading what I posted yesterday and not all of it makes sense. I swear in the 3 hours of sleep I was running on, it made sense. I even re-read it a few times before a posted it. I don’t know what my problem was. Oh well!

Yesterday was a very busy, but great day! I had classes all day; however it was the first time that I was actually able to ask for prayer in class about transferring. I have been needing prayer for specific things for a little while now, but was unable to ask for it since I hadn’t told anyone I was leaving. It was really nice being able to finally ask for it. Right now I could really use some prayer for emotional strength, patience, and peace. This is a very stressful time as I am trying to get everything in order before I leave and time is running out.

Last night I had the chance to hang out with my friend Eve, whom I haven’t gotten to hang out with all semester! It was such a blessing! She is so much fun to talk to and I always have a good time with her. I am so grateful for her! I don’t think she even realizes how much she touched me last night by just being herself! Eve, you’re amazing, you’re such a great friend, and I appreciate you so much!

Well I thought I would share a couple of pics with ya’ll of my siblings and me. My family is everything to me and I am so grateful for them! They are so important to me and I can’t wait until I transfer so that I will be closer to them!

This is my brother Kevin and sister Jamie on New Moon premiere night!

The three of us on Thanksgiving!

I and Love and You,

Diana

It's Time to Trust

“Lord, I thank you that you are in control, no matter what happens. I trust that you are holding me in the palm of your hand, today and always—and that you’ll never let me go.”

This is a quote that I received in an email today. And I realized that this is something that I really need to take to heart and try to say this prayer every day. I think it might be time to pull out another index card so that I can post it in front of me at my desk. As I am sure you will grasp about me, and as I have said before, I don’t do well with change. But it is so important in my life, especially right now that I am in this process of dealing with a very large change, that I just give it all to God, and trust Him for He know best!

My favorite verse that I attempt to live my life by is Psalm 37:5 “Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him and He will help you.” Of course being human I very often fail at this, but I feel like everywhere I turn I am constantly being reminded that I need to trust Him. I don’t know if it is a sign that something life changing is about to occur or not. But I don’t want to read into it too much, because then it will just stress me out! I think I may take another index card and just write TRUST!

Okay, now I am going to very abruptly change the subject. I think I could go on and on about trust, but I am not going to. So, last night I had an awesome time at IHOP with some friends. I am really trying to focus my time on spending some quality time with my friends, since time is very quickly running out. If you want to hang out just let me know; I would be more than happy to! I feel like the subject is now going to end up being time, but it really isn’t something to worry about until it is being taken away. And although time is not being taken away in the permanent form of death, it is all the same being taken away in that I am not going to be able to see the same people that I have for the last two and a half years, every day.


Not only is time an issue with not being able to see friends, it is also in a more physical form (or at least the physical form as I see it in my head) that I just have a lot to do. I am now in the homestretch of the semester. All of the final projects of the year are all going to occur in the next two weeks, and then after that there are exams. On top of all the school work, a couple of weeks ago I received an email from student retention giving me a list of things I need to make sure I have all tied up before I leave. Even though I am very grateful for the list, because I love lists, it is just a reminder of all the stress there is to come.

Well I guess trust and time are just two things I need to focus on; trusting the Lord and managing my time wisely. If I remember I will attempt to let you know how it is going!


I and Love and You,

Diana